I've been trying to eat for as cheap as I possibly can. That sucks really bad though. I ate a kind of gross can of potato soup when I realized that that was all I had eaten today and that I was craving things like entire food groups (meat, veggies mostly). I wasn't feeling very well and I knew that it was partially from not eating enough but also not eating a variety of foods. I've mostly been eating rice and sandwiches. I went to the store and bought fresh spinach, carrots, raspberries, fresh green beans, apples, refried beans, eggs and other good things. I even saved $10 off of a $30 total! So, I came home and ate fried rice with carrots and green beans in it. I started feeling a whole lot better fairly quickly.
I spent most of my day inside. It was really rainy and cold. I love the rain though. My roommate and her husband were home all day and I found myself in my room with my door shut most of the day. (Not avoiding them, but not really wanting to hang out with them either). I found out that he likes to sing, dance, burp, and make funny noises when he thinks no one is home, lol.
I got the nerve up and called the hotty-guy back. I was happy to get his answering machine. Hopefully he'll be calling me back soon. I'm not sure what he and I should do when we hang out. I was thinking about going out to eat, getting ice cream, renting movies, going to coffee shops, or something like that. If anyone else has an idea, let me know.

So, I quit my job at the pizza place last Thursday. I kept thinking about all of the crappy relationships, jobs, friendships, living situations that I've stayed in because I was too scared to leave, didn't think I'd find anything better, worried that it was the best I could find. But really, I've quite all of those things and found better situations before. I have enough money in savings to be ok. I have work experience and another job already (the restaurant). I figured that I've taken a chance before and they've worked out, so this probably will too.

I talked to my other boss and he's letting me work a few more hours for him, which is really good. Ah, the delivery boy at work didn't talk to me much. I think he might be shy, but I'm not sure. He seemed cool (like the kind of guys who wouldn't have talked to me in high school), but he seemed more shy than stand offish though. Hopefully it's just that. We seemed to get along enough anyway.

I also got a call back from the cute guy I asked out a while back. I left him a message a few days ago but I had given up on him and figured he probably wouldn't call me back. I was really happy and surprised that he called me. He said that he still wants to hang out sometime. :-)

I found out that my cousin just got engaged! That’s cool. They’re a cute couple. I also got to see my uncle today. That was cool too. He’s a pretty nice guy and he has some really interesting stories. He has a really interesting business/politician way of talking too that I find amusing to watch.

Today was my only day off this week. I slept in until 11am, then I had burritos for breakfast and lunch, lol. Then I sat out side and read (until I got sun burned and realized that I was out there for a really long time). I love the book The Tao of Pooh! I read it in one day, almost all in one sitting. It's an awesome book that everyone should read. I didn't know much about Winnie the Pooh, but now I really want to read those books or watch the show to see how it relates to the book. The book expalins a lot of things about Taoism in an easy to understand way with short stories to show you how to apply it in real life (which is great even though I usually hate short stories that explain what they just said). It has a lot of good ideas and points. It's kind of inspirational too.
I made myself some spagghetti for dinner. Then I drove to Morrison. It's so pretty over there. They have some really cool coffee shops I'll have to visit sometime. There are some pretty back roads into the mountains too. I'll want to check those out too. I really want to go camping one of these days. I'm hoping to find people to go with who have actually camped before and know what they are doing. That would be really cool.

Today was my first day back at the Chinese restaruant. Ya! I love that place so much! I made $11.50 an hour tonight! It was so awesome. It's fun work too. I had time to read, talk to customers, talk to co-workers, listen to the tini waterfall, etc.. My parents let me eat dinner at their house too, which is cool.
There's a cute guy at work. He seems nice, easy to talk to, good guy. He's 17 though and going to be a senior in high school. When I was a freshman in college I decided that I didn't really want to date high schoolers anymore (and that was two years ago). I don't know. He seems kind of mature. But he does still live with his parents and is kind of young. He looks young and I am use to dating older guys, so it's especially weird for me to think about liking him. I think that would be funny if I dated him and the other guy, then I would be dating a 17 year old and a 27 year old, lol. So, what does everyone think? What do you think is the oldest and younest age range for me to date? (keep in mind I'm a 20 year old, college junior, living on my own, female thinking just about guys on this (girls I would say 18 and over because of the scandle of it, lol). A lot of the maturity aspects has to do with the individual person. There are some 40 year olds that are more immature than some 20 year olds. The oldest person I've dated was 29, the youngest was 19 (one year older than I was at the time).

I woke up in a bad mood today, I don't know why. I slept in a bit and didn't have much time to myself before work. I cut pizzas most the time. My boss sent me on a delivery, which was cool. I found out that I'm the oldest person there who does my job. That's cool though. My bosses talk to me differently (in a good way). I worked 8 hours. I was so tired! It's hard to stand around and run around for that long. I burned my other thumb kind of bad. Now I have blisters on both my thumbs. Oh well, hopefully it'll callous soon and my thumbs will be tougher. I went to the grocery store after dinner and bought a bunch of stuff for dinners but realized that I wasn't hungry for dinner, lol. I met my roommate's husband today. He seems nice. It's like having three roommates for a while. (four when Sarah's boyfriend spends the night). That's cool though, their boyfriends and husbands are nice. I'm going to bed soon (hopefully my roommates will be more quiet (They have tomorrow off, but that's one of my busy days). I hope my really cool boss works tomorrow. I'll try to come up with some cool stuff I can day dream about at work, lol. You gotta love a job that takes less than two hours of training and you can daydream for most the shift. I have a favorite day dream right now about touring around with Ani Difranco or Julie Wolf or Alix Olson (singers). That would be awesome! I was also thinking a lot about how cool it would be if I could be a seamstress or carpenter and could work out of my house. I also thought about what it would be like to be a pizza on the convayerbelt. That wasn't as good of a daydream, lol.

I started work at the pizza place today. I cut pizzas most of today. One of my bosses really really rocks! He's really sweet and didn't make me feel totally stupid about my mistakes. There are two really cool girls. They helped me out a lot. There are some nice high school boys there too. The girls are definitely the most competent workers though, lol. There are four guys that work in the back, three of which were kind of icky. They kept making comments at me like, "Momisita" "ochy-wa-wa", and other annoying things. I didn't want to yell at them since it's my first day and I don't know much spanish. I ignored them and pretended like I didn't know who they were talking about. The one guy in the back who wasn't yelling out stuff got a lot of points for being more of a gentleman.
I got a long break inbetween my shifts, so I came home, ate some lunch, did yoga, watched the shows I Tivoed, and went back to work. After work I talked to one of my roommates briefly. She seems cool. Then I went to Wendy's to celebrating the first day of work. I tried calling the cute guy. I called his cell phone from my cell phone- so the reception wasn't great. He couldn't hear anything I said though and I had to just hang up (I kept hearing him say "hello?"). I tried calling him back, but he didn't answer. I hope he doesn't realize it's me and think that I was calling him but just not talking, or something creepy like that. I thought that it might have helped that I did try to call back once.

I watched tv with one of my roommates this morning. It was nice. Still awkward though. I saw Eric and Jon, ya! That was fun. I went to my job interview (the first place I applied to) and I got the job! I start work tomorrow (pizza place). Then I went to the grocery store and talked to a bunch of people on the phone. I went driving for a while to get out of the house. I was feeling anxious like I'm not getting everything done that I want to, but really, I've done a lot this week. I think I just need to do more things that I really want to do. I think it's good that I've gotten 2 jobs, a place to live, and a date all in one week. I just need to relax and find entertaining hobbies too.

Yeah! The cute guy I asked out responded to my email already! He said that he’d like to hang out sometime. :-) I talked to some of my friends on the phone and watched the stuff Tivo recorded. I love Tivo! Then I went for a bike ride. I really need to get into better shape. I was really tired, out of breath, than my allergies got really bad, lol. Then I made spaghetti for dinner today again. I practiced guitar and played Sims. I saw my roommates a little bit today, it’s still a bit awkward though. I think that I might watch tv with them one of these nights (they hang out and watch tv together a lot). Her poor dog was crying most of the day. It was so sad. She doesn’t want the dogs to play together because they keep hurting each other and they run a muck in the house. She has a big back yard though. I don’t know why she doesn’t let the healthy one run around in the backyard. The one with a broken leg stays in his tiny cage most of the day and evening. It’s really sad. I think she’s gotten really frustrated with the dogs, but still. I don’t know why she doesn’t let the dogs live happily and run around, even if they hurt themselves. That seems like a better life than being injured and sitting in a cage.

I drove around for a few hours today. I found out where a lot of places are. I'm starting to feel a bit more comfortable in this area of town. I think next year I might look for places downtown or Boulder. That would be more exciting. I still like this place though. I went to the grocery store for the first time (to by stuff other than snacks). My friend Keli came over and I fixed us spaghetti. She and I hung out and explored more parts of town. I told her about one of the cute guys I met the other day and she convinced me to email him, hee hee. I was so nervous! I hope he doesn’t think I’m weird. I really don’t know what my “league” is. I usually assume cute guys are jerks, so I don’t even try to go after them, and I’m usually surprised if they flirt with me. I’ve gotten guys that I thought were out of my league though, so I don’t know. Hopefully this guy will email or call me back.

I moved into the new house today. It's been interesting. I'm mostly unpacked already. I have no idea what I'm going to do now. I went to dinner with my brother and picked up some things from my parent's house. Then I came back and read the newspaper, walked around, talked to one of my roommates, watched a tiny bit of tv, and read. It was wierd. I'm really bored now that I don't have tons of homework and club stuff to do. I'm going to talk to my boss tommorrow about working. I'm also going to look for another part time job closer to home. Then I'm going to explore the neighborhood and surrounding area. I heard that there is a library near by. I might try to find some cool bike trails soon too. It's strange living with roommates again. I'm having culture shock of living in a house that isn't my parents. I'm trying to figure out the rules and expectations of the house. I just found out that this place has a basement. I don't know where I'm going to be able to put any food I get. I've started to get shy around the roommates like I usually do when I'm not totally comfortable (since it's all new and I want them to think I'm not weird, lol). They've been surprised by how quite I am and how I'm not really making myself at home yet. (I keep asking where I can put stuff and if I can watch the tv, etc). I'm so use to having to do that at my parents house though. I'm surprised that she has no rules at all and is really laid back about stuff. She seems somewhat uptight but still doesn't care about things at the same time. I hope there isn't too much girl drama. It's starting to seem like it could go that way. Usually if I don't make myself at home and don't set up my own boundaries, they get totally walked on. I bet that I'll be able to relax more later and be more comfortable and social here.
I've also realized today that my parents are scared of everything! I knew that before, but I never realized it until I really started to rebel against the simple, everyday stuff they do. I've learned that the things they consider scary and difficult are things that only become scary and difficult when you make them that way.
Also, I hate how lonely it is when school breaks start. I'm so use to having my friends really close by and tons of people in the dorms to talk to all the time. It's also more lonely now because I'm in a new area, further away from my friends from last summer. It's made me re-think the whole fear of dating thing. It would be really nice to have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now. mostly I just hope that I can make as many cool friends here as I can (soon would be nice too).

Sorry Vince! I'll start updating it more now. I'm glad that you still read it. :-)
My finals are all done! Yeah! I got home on Wednesday. I only cried once this year saying goodbye to people, which is a lot less crying than last year. But most my friends this year are coming back, so that's why. I've been looking for apartments ever since I got back. I saw 6 houses. Here's the house/roommate summaries:
House 1- Brian (mid 30s) Justin (age late 20s). Room is smaller than my dorm room and right by the washing machine, $500 a month. At least 2 guns in the house, one guy drinks, and one guy is a bluntly rude New Yorker.

House 2- half hour away from work, nice house though. Two guy roommates. The one guy kept looking at my boobs, and I think was either on meth or speed and was kind of freakin out. So that won't work.

House 3- average Joe, nice, gay guy trying to be straight. Only $350, but a shared bathroom and a really tiny room. Close to work and he has a dog, but really small house.

House 4- Annie, cool, laid back chick. Nice area, close to cool parks, 20 minutes from work. Two dogs. Beautiful house, big yard, furniture bed room.

House 5- Colin. My God! He is one of the most attractive people I've ever met in my life! I've met attractive men like that before, but I've never wanted to have sex with someone so bad! (Sorry for being crude). It's ridiculous! I've never felt such raw, animal attraction for someone like that before. His place was nice. Beautiful area, closest to parks, 20 minutes from work. I decided that Annie place was nicer, cheaper, etc. and even though it's a more beautiful area, I should probably not live with a guy I'm unbelievably attracted to. I'm blushing and need a cold shower thinking about it, lol. He seems really nice and interesting too, so it’s more than just physical attraction. I thought about stalling on the phone when I called to tell him I chose somewhere else, and I think he wanted to keep talking, but I freaked out and ended the conversation quickly. I thought about calling him back, but I'm not sure what I would say, I don't know what he would say if I asked him out. (he's freakin cool, 27 years old, possibly out of my league, I don't know). Any advice on that would be super.

House 6- Really nervous, high strung, metro sexual man. He bought me coffee and we went for a walk before I saw his place. It was a cool room, but only ok house. His other roommate was really cute too, and really laid back. His roommate told me some cute stories about how he's been nervous hitting on girls and was kind of lonely and was reading books about how to pick up on girls, lol. I thought that was cute. But I decided that it wasn't as good as Annie's house either, no dogs, too expensive, etc.


So my final decision is Annie's house. I'm meeting with her tomorrow to work out rent and all of that. I'm probably moving in on Sunday. Yeah! I'm so glad that I did all of that work to find a place. It's been a good experience. I got to see some new parts of town, meet some cool new people, and I found a cool place to live. :-) This has been an awesome summer so far, and it's only been three days so far!

*Lisa's blog should be updated more...and more people should visit it...and more people should visit mine: www.blogocide.com...muhahahahaha*

I had an awesome birthday on Saturday. It was so cool that it was on a Saturday. I hung out and didn't do any work all day. I got an excellent brunch and dinner. It rained and was really pretty outside. Then Sean and I went to rent videos. I picked out Spanglish and Garden State (thanks for the recommendation Vince). I love those movies! I watched Spanglish again. I really want to watch Garden State again right away, but I told some people I would wait and watch it with them later. I watched American Beauty today too, it seemed like it fit with those movies. I watched Life or Something Like it a few days ago, it's also the same type of movie (although they are all different). Beautiful movies.