I woke up early today and went to the Cheese Cake Factory for lunch with my parents and grandparents. My parents wanted to surprise my grandparents by telling them that day that we were going down town (b/c they didn't think Grandpa would want to go if he thought about it much). I think they had fun anyway. I also went to the library and worked a few hours today.
I made a list of my favorite "extras" in movies. Like Britany Murphy was an extra when I first saw he and liked her, now she's famous. Another one of my favorite extras is John Cho- and now he has a main role in Harold and Kumar! He usually remembered for playing a jerk in movies, but he might not be in real life. I mostly put him on the list because he's so hot, lol. I hope my other favorite extras become famous. When I figure out they're names, I'll post the list.

My cool grandparents are here.  I'm really glad that they came.  We talked a long time and then went to my restaurant.  My grandpa is confused by Chinese food, lol, but he still seemed to like it.  I also went clothes shopping with my mom, she bought me a few shirts, it was nice of her. 

So my goal of not being a push over is going better.  It really annoyed people at first and I was constantly being disapointed.  But things have been different now.  Kyle stopped his snooty comments and apologized for some of the things he said.  He also admitted that he was suprised that I still helped him so much at work.  He said that I still did a lot more for him than he ever would.  At least he's trying a little more.  He's still lazy, but it's better.  Evan and Mike P.  started helping more too.  Mike T. has been one of the few to be responsible on his own.  He's very gentlemanly.  He takes responiblity for things and wont let other people do it for him.  He also wont take tips that he really doesn't deserve.  He does a lot of cool things, even more than people would expect.  He's been a really good influence on everyone.  I also realized that other than Jefferson, most my friends don't call me as much as I call them.  So I've called them all  and am making myself wait for them to call me next.  It took a couple weeks for Keli to call me back, but she finally did today.  We talked for over an hour and a half, went out for ice cream and watched a movie.  I think she didn't call because she's really busy, shy, use to being alone a lot more, and she's use to me calling her.  I also made my brother pay for his half of everything at the concert (dinner, ticket, alcohol, and parking).  I also told him that I was going to drive (b/c he drinks too much and I'm not getting in bad situations of having to ride with him drunk).  I told him when I was going and didn't remind him excessively.  He suprisingly was dependible.  I'm still mad that he got drunk durring dinner one night, then he forgot me at the grocery store (fortunintly I had his car keys or he would have driven which would be really bad and I would have had to walk home).  I'm not paying for anything for anyone any more (except if I have a bf- than I'll pay 50% of the time- no more no less).  I'm also going to drive whenever I don't fully trust someone.  I had to do that with my bad friends in high school, unfortunitly I have to do that again. 

I made tons of money today!  I was really happy about that.  I got to see Mike today (kid at work), I haven't seen him in a long time.  He's pretty nice for the most part.  I talked to Eric and Mr. Lu a lot today, more than usual.  I was in a really good mood.  Mr. Lu invited me to go bowling with him.  I said sure.  I think that he's trying to set me up with his grandson though.  I was in a good mood and I thought it would be fun to bowl with Mr. Lu  and it would be interesting to go with them for fun.  I don't know what his grandson would think about his grandfather setting him up though, lol.  I wouldn't go to meet someone as a date, I'd go just for fun.  Jefferson said that it sounded desparate!  I'm so not though!  I've already decided that I'm not going to date for at least the rest of this summer, and I haven't been remotely attracted to anyone in a long time.  I'm just now getting to the point where I want to even meet new friends or hang out with my friends now.  The idea of a relationship right now is wierd, confusing and kind of scary.  I'm not lonely at all. This is one of the times in my life that I felt the least lonely.   At most, I wish that I had more compatible and close friends here.  Relationships and even friendships are confusing to me right now.  I don't even understand myself or anything right now.    I've been really disapointed in people and some frienships I have.  I wish that I could just change, instantly, the things about myself that I wish were different.  It would be nice if society was different, if people and friendships were different.  I want to figure out who I am more, and what I want, and what I think/how I see things, and then start all over next year at school where people don't know me yet.  So back to the story...
I also went to a cafe with Jefferson, downtown.  I decided last minute that I didn't want to swing dance and I wanted to go to  the poetry reading instead.  I talked to people afterward, read, and drank hot chocolate, and ease dropped on some very loud conversations at the bar.  I eventually went to dance a couple dances with Jefferson.  I'm still not sure if I really like swing.  I'd like to take more classes before I try dancing with people.  It's not much fun to try and dance with people who are really into it and want to dance well with someone who is also good at dancing, and your not that good yet.

I went to the O.A.R. concert today.  They are so incredibly awesome!  I really love that band.  The music is awesome, the concert was so much fun, the opening act (Matt Nathanson) was so so cool too.  "How about a revolution?  He said why.  I say look.  Ya'll say ahhh.  A revolution- you all say Jah."  - OAR. 
They're such an upbeat, inspirational band.  That was one of the best concerts I've ever been to.  It was so much fun to dance in the crowd and most people sang along.  It was a pretty long concert too.  The two opening acts and they both got to play for about an hour. 

I worked on tuesday.  Wednesday I ran arrends and I finished painting a box.  It's a cool wooden box.  I drew and painted flowers on it.  It took me about 6 hours of painting and a few hours to draw it.  I think it turned out nice.  It was fun to do.  Jefferson and I hung out on Thursday.  We went to Walmart and Del Taco.  I love Del Taco, It's so cheap and it's still good.  I mostly just worked today. 

I’m glad that I could see Vince again, the day before he left.  I was happy that I got to see Kevin and Zach again too.  (Note to Kevin-  I did like your hair, the pictures you had of your short hair reminded me of someone I knew who tried too hard, that’s all.  I don’t think it looks like that on you, it’s good). 
I worked today.  I was suppose to have the day off but my boss needed me to open the restaurant for him.  I made about $9.50 an hour today.  It was awesome.  I was also in charge most of the night.  The boys had to do their work for the first time in a while because I was working in the back.  It was funny, Kyle and Evan realized how much work I really do for them.  Evan even helped me do some of my work when he saw how much I had to do. 

Kyle at work was such a jerk today.  I help him do his job all the time because he doesn’t like the phone and the work won’t get done if I don’t do it.  I keep him out of trouble because I fix his mistakes and solve the problems he creates without getting the boss involved.  Kyle overly exaggerated two little mistakes I made and told my boss about it!  He was snotty and a jerk when he talked to me.  He’s so full of himself and defensive.  I’m also disappointed in some other people.  I’ve decided to not take crap from people anymore and to actually stand up for myself.  I usually just put up with stuff or wait until something really pisses me off, than I freak out about it to that person.  I don’t really like confrontation and I’ve had to deal with the disappointment of realizing that some people always demand having their way and really don’t care about what I want.  Not that I’m being totally selfish right now, I’m just sick of putting up with so much.  I’m in a really pissed off, bitter mood lately.  I need a new way to look at everything.  A lot of things have been making me really sad or really pissed off.  I really really need something new.  

I got to Vince, Zach, and Sean again.  It was really nice to see everyone.  But it's so sad that Vince is going to be leaving soon.  I miss hanging out with everyone.  My brother is moving away!  :-( 
 

Yesterday’s dream- My dog had a giant tent in the backyard. It was two stories and had tons of room. There was a tornado coming though, so we brought it inside so he could hang out in it inside.
Last night’s dream- That I went to my friend Kt's apartment. We hung out, played chess, talked about having a short summer fling, and made out. Lol, it was a good dream. I've had a lot of dreams about her. I dreamt that I married her once. Usually I just have dreams that we’re on a date or hanging out. She, tornados, abandoned buildings, etc are reoccurring dreams I have all the time.
I’m officially not grounded any more. I was grounded for a couple days for breaking curfew. If only she knew about having two cars full of people pushing the car out of the rut in the side of the road or a few hours later- getting in trouble with the police, bla bla bla. Lol- it’s really not that big of a deal, we were just at the park too late.
Yesterday Jefferson and I went to one of my favorite cafes. There was an awesome singer there. It was only Jefferson and I in the room for the first part of her concert, it was like a private concert. I don’t think Jefferson really liked the grassroots, lesbian, feminist, folk music though. I thought it was awesome. It would have been fun to talk to her after the show. I hope she comes her again soon.
I quit working at movie theatre. I like my other job so much and I’d have more time for it if I only have one job. The theatre job really wasn’t that great either.

Jefferson and and his friends had a really big 4th of July party. It was fun. They had an awesome firework show, it was by far the coolest non-proffesional show I've ever seen. There were some really cool people there. They even had a really great live band. One of the neighbors had a pool, but it was too cold to swim today. I am really glad that I was able to go to the party.

Yesterday I found out that this really cool kid from high school is working at the restaurant with me. It was fun to talk to him again. We worked together a little before. We talked about high school, our mutual friends in high school, and philosophy (he's a philosophy and theology major). I didn't want to leave work. I also got a raise. I love that job.